Honestly, I never thought I would still be doing it almost three years later.
I started it on a whim.
Here is my first post ever.
I have come a long way.
I don’t even remember hearing the term “blogger” before I started even though I knew “bloggers” existed because how else would I think to start one?
I am not that much of a trendsetter.
In fact, I don’t even remember what possessed me to start blogging in the first place.
I mean, I know I started it as a stress reliever but what in heaven’s name possessed me to say, “you know what? Today I am going to start writing a blog. Telling the world my problems, fears and under 5 buck craft ideas!”
I didn’t have that real conversation with myself or that would just be silly.
Recently I read a blog post about someone trying to get into this particular blogging network (not Blogher) and how to do so you had to follow this certain blog on five different social media sites (there are five different social media sites?!?!?!) and jump through hoops like donating your blood and children (just kidding. I think.) to get in.
And it stopped me in my tracks.
Because I had a moment of “why am I here” right then and thereafter reading it.
Not “why am I here” in the human sense but “why am I here” in the blog sense.
I am deep.
What are we bloggers doing here?
What is the main goal?
To have a tweet that is favorited 1000 times?
To get a million Facebook followers for your page?
To have your blog featured on the Huffington Post?
To get a book deal?
To have your craft room shown in a magazine article?
To make so much money that you never ever have to work or struggle again?
To reach a gazillion page views?
Let me first say this.
If you have achieved the above, I am not at all jealous.
I am happy for you.
Because that is amazing.
We live in a jaded, jaded society so if you can succeed in the above ways, you have talent.
And we all want the above for our own blogs.
And you are lying like a dog if you don’t.
Yeah, sure, you are blogging because you love to write and bring happiness and flowers and rainbows to everyone who reads your blog.
I love to write.
I love it more than any other hobby I have.
But I also love to be rewarded.
It’s human nature, don’t you think?
So getting my little check from Blogher every 3 months is rewarding.
Going to blog conferences is rewarding.
Getting featured at another blog is rewarding.
Having someone comment on my posts is rewarding.
I could go on and on.
But it’s true.
When I started this blog, it was completely for me.
All the way.
As evidenced by my three page views a day feedback (which I think were all from my mom. I love you, mom!!).
But I have grown.
Not in leaps and bounds like most bloggers do but grown in what I consider to be very prosperous ways.
I have met so many engaging and affirming human beings since starting blogging in the forms of readers, other bloggers or friends who read my blog and I became closer to because of the blog.
This blog has created such an amazing outlet for me.
I am a better mom because of it, not in spite of it because I get to vent in healthy ways about things I love to do.
Like cook, decorate, paint, write and be sarcastic.
Yes, that can be a hobby too.
Because I had an 80’s theme going on.
I also have a long way to go if I ever want to reach the above goals too.
I don’t necessarily want all the above goals.
A few, maybe?
I would love to be successful enough that I can inspire people.
Especially on the cheap decor bit.
Mostly because I live it.
I am cheap, I don’t have a lot of money and I am not ashamed of it.
I can’t go out and buy lots of home decor in one spell.
If you can, then it’s a lot easier to make your home pretty.
But if you are on a small budget, it is really hard.
So that is part of who I speak to with this blog.
That part will never change.
But I don’t know how to do so many things when it comes to blogging.
I am not really good at networking.
I just don’t want to come off like a salesman when it comes to my blog.
I see a lot of bloggers who self promote excessively and I just can’t do it.
I put my blog out there on link parties, Facebook and Twitter and that is all I can do without throwing up in my mouth a little.
So yes, I don’t have 10000000’s of followers on the three social media tools I use.
But I am okay with that.
Because I am on a first-name basis with all of my 200 + Facebook fans.
And I have time to email them back and talk to them like we are old friends.
Because, well…. because we are.
And I like them an awful lot.
I don’t want to become so big that I don’t have time to do that.
Or have to hire someone else to do that.
And I am pretty sure my picture isn’t on his business card.
I even have a board on Pinterest about all things that pertain to blogging.
I almost want to turn it into a secret board because if more experienced bloggers saw what I was pinning, they would hang their heads in shame.
And my followers might be a little confused as to why I know so little as it pertains to blogging.
As evidenced by what I am pinning to that board.
For example, clip art.
I pinned a great resource for clip art.
For my blog.
I had no idea you could use clip art on a blog!
I didn’t know what that was until last fall.
I thought it was a retirement savings plan.
Because I look thin in this one.
I was informed about what this was by some amazing bloggers I met in Chicago back in December.
They all had one.
I do not.
Apparently, I should have one?
How to attach a document to a blog post?
Why would I ever need to do this?
See how little your resident blogger knows?
So I don’t think you need to worry about me hitting the big time anytime soon.
And that is just fine with me.
Pass the potato chips.
They’re doing something funny over at my friend Sue’s blog.