Last spring, I was a better version of myself. I read a book about being a badass, then I felt like I actually was a badass because of said badass book.
I wrote about being evolved. Well, more evolved than I had ever been before.
Which isn’t saying much but in this evolution, I was going to create a vision board.
Don’t know what a vision board is? You aren’t alone.
There are vision board tutorials all over Pinterest just waiting to get their hands on you.
I for one had no idea what it was until a couple of years ago when I was at a blogging event in Chicago sponsored by Coca-Cola and was in a workshop that had us creating vision boards.
That Coca-Cola so evolved and shit.
I met one of my first real-life blogging friends, soon-to-be blogging conference roommate and generally amazing human being, Jeanette, in that workshop. She loaned me her glue stick which when you are creating a vision board is like a life raft in the being evolved game.
Isn’t she cute?
So anyway, we made these vision boards about what we wanted in our lives at that moment.
A CHEESEBURGER?! THE WAISTLINE OF MY 17-YEAR-OLD SELF?! OOH! RED ROBIN TOWER OF ONIONS?!
As you can see, I was a visionary newbie.
My board ended up looking like a mix between my fifth-grade science project about the dinosaurs, my junior high bedroom wall, and part of a bathroom stall in an automotive repair place.
I remember having pictures of food and exercise on my board which is a contradiction no-no when it comes to vision boards. But have you ever tried Red Robin’s tower o’ onion rings??
I came home from that conference, stuffed the vision cardboard into a drawer somewhere and didn’t see it again until I was cleaning out the drawer some three years later. I then laughed at my “vision” and tossed into the recycle bin. Because maybe I am not evolved but hell if I don’t love the environment.
Then last year I read that “badass” book and thought maybe I hadn’t taken the vision board’s power seriously enough.
People were talking up this vision board thing like it was magical.
Could it be that simple? Just writing down ideas, quotes, pictures? Would that manifest itself into my destiny??
After checking my temperature for using the word “manifest” in a blog post, I decided that I was going to revisit the vision board and make another one.
Fast forward from April of 2017 to October of 2017, no board even close to creation but as I was doing my morning ritual of blog reading (it’s a thing and you should try it), KISMET:
My friend Jeanette whom I met WHILE making my first vision board, wrote a post ABOUT creating a vision board!
CAN YOU SAY FULL CIRCLE?
I THINK YOU CAN!
LET’S GO GET SOME ONION RINGS!
I commented something about it being so cosmic and that I needed to get on that.
Fast forward to March of 2018 and no vision or board is in my home.
Only a post-it note stuck to my day calendar with the words vision board-make one on it.
After months of hemming and hawing, I went to Meijer and bought a friggin’ white poster board like a friggin’ second grader.
I thought about getting stickers and markers and lots of fun things to add to my vision board but then I got distracted by the Easter candy and realized that I probably have no business creating a vision board in the first place and don’t set the bar too high.
Ooh, are those marshmallow filled chocolate bunnies??
That day after doing my “real” work, I decided that I was going to work on my vision board.
Only, there was one small problem.
I don’t have any magazines.
Oh yes, I do.
Apparently, my vision for 2018 is to find me a car under 20 grand.
Back to the literal drawing board.
It was as I was reading Jeanette’s blog post that I decided to go another way.
Why can’t I create a virtual vision board?
I realize the creative in you is sighing heavily at this but the neat freak and environmentalist in me is screaming for joy.
What items will you need to create your board, you ask?
That, my friends, is the beauty of a virtual vision board!
There is a great tutorial on how to create a virtual vision board using only Pic Monkey here because I am not good at explaining things.
Or making real-life vision board’s.
Here is my board:
1- As you can see, I chose a very spiritual title: Get My Shit Together in 2018.
My vision– I need to get my shit together in 2018.
2- The hummingbird represents my grandma and the tattoo that I plan to get this year along with my mom and Anna. It also represents that I want to be more open to angels this year because according to the Internets, I am apparently not being visited enough.
My vision– I want to be open enough to feel my grandma’s presence from the other side in addition to other loved ones who have crossed over.
3- I was ashamed of my screenplay in 2017; even doubting it which I realize is putting out really bad vibes into the Universe where my work is concerned. Honestly, I have self-doubt days a lot especially when I feel like no one is reading it. But adding it to my blog is a lot of work and maybe I should stop doing that and instead focus on getting it ready to submit again.
On the other hand, I am also happy and positive for putting it on my blog this year and hearing so many amazing responses to. As you can see, I need to feel more confident about it in 2018 if I want it to grow and become something bigger going forward. (That sounded dirty but FOR REAL. MAKE IT GROW, UNIVERSE).
My vision- I want my screenplay to be made into a major motion picture and need to make better choices to help it grow.
4- I love traveling but it is a luxury that we can’t always afford to do. In the past, we didn’t go many places with the kids other than an hour radius for many reasons but the big one usually starts with an M and ends with a Y. In 2018, I want to stop feeling guilty when we spend money as it pertains to travel.
My vision– I want to take the trip but on the cheap. Experiences are worth more than physical things.
5- “The soul often speaks through longing“. There are things in my life that I would like to change, places I would rather be, and I want a life for my family that feels like less of a day-to-day struggle.
My vision– I want to listen to my soul more in 2018 and not push it down because the timing isn’t right.
6- “Our heart knows the way, run in that direction“. I listen to my head more than I ever do my heart. I want that to change this year.
My vision– I want to listen to my heart more in 2018 and see if I am happier.
7- “Sometimes our lives have to be changed, shaken up, and rearranged to relocate to the place we’re meant to be“. This has everything to do with my fear of change. I am not a fan of change but I want to learn how to conquer that,
My vision- I want to stop being afraid of change and learn to embrace it.
8- I am madly in love with my husband but we don’t take enough time for each other, admittedly on both parts. When he was working 60 hours a week at a dealership, we always made time to do date night once a month. Probably because we never saw each other. But now we both work from home so we rarely if ever go on dates. We went out to dinner alone two weeks ago for the first time in at least a year and it was so much fun. We need to do that more.
My vision- I want to make time to date my husband in 2018 because I miss alone time with him that doesn’t include a remote control and 48 Hours marathon. Red Robin maybe?
9- “Whatever makes your soul happy. Do that“. I sense a theme with my quote choices.
My vision- Do what makes you happy even if it doesn’t necessarily make sense. Like eating deep-fried onion rings.
10- Prayer. I am not always good at it.
I tend to pray in three situations: at church, at the supper table, and when I am in trouble.
I do, for the most part, also pray when someone asks for my prayers but in all honesty, I pass off prayer. For example, I will ask my mom, Rebecca, and Ella to pray for me because as I say to them, “I feel like God listens to your prayers more than mine“.
That is a lot of pressure to put on them (although I do believe it to be true). But I think he’d probably listen to me if I talked to Him more, so I am gonna talk to Him more in 2018. Actually, ALL Y’ALL need to talk to Him more in 2018 too.
My vision- Pray like my life depends on it daily.
11- I AM a writer but sometimes I don’t take myself seriously and I put bad shit into the Universe when I do that. Just because I don’t have a degree in English, or Writing, or Editing doesn’t mean I am not a writer. That negative crap needs to go away in 2018 forever.
My vision– Don’t doubt me when it comes to writing. Also, don’t read any grammar or punctuation articles shared by fellow writers WITH English degrees anymore because I don’t need that kind of negativity in my life.
12- Get off my meds. I am in the process of writing a blog post about how I am kind of pissed off at our health care system and how I want to be off my migraine meds by the end of 2018. That is my big goal. I want to be medication-free by December (if not before then). I know it will be hard but there have to be better ways to help me avoid them that aren’t in pill form.
My vision- I want to stop taking my preventative for migraines and control my pain by diet, exercise, and a better way of life.
13- I just loved that picture of my mom with the girls so I added it as a reminder that family is important and is before anything else.
My vision– I love my little family and want to keep close always. Let’s go to Red Robin to celebrate.
14- I want to get in a better financial place this year, pay off debt, blah blah, Also, I want to be able to get a massage (because that’s what it’s really about) and not feel guilty about it. To be clear, no one but myself is making me feel guilty. I just want to get to a place where it doesn’t seem like such a splurge even though it is so good for my health. And also pay off debt.
My vision– I want to be halfway to being debt free by the end of 2018. And also more massages.
15- I have always joked that I don’t take a good picture but I want more pictures of me out there in the Universe. Not just pretty, staged, photoshopped pictures but REAL ASS pictures. I need to care less and less what you think of me and more and more what I think of me. That picture up there was taken after a long-ass church sermon, a good cry about my teenager graduating, and me eating a brick of Swiss cheese (I HAVE NO REGRETS); it’s out there for everyone to see and I feel good about it.
My vision– I want to like myself more, accept who I am more, and care less about what others think about me.
16- “The biggest communication problem is that we do not listen to understand. We listen to reply“.
Hell to the YESSES. I am so guilty of this and I notice that Ella is too (because of me). So I want to intentionally listen to conversations and not just pretend I am to get to the ME portion of the conversation. I have worked with Ella on eye contact and the art of listening when someone is talking to you for the past month because that can be hard with kids who have ADHD and anxiety. (And adults with it too).
My vision- I will genuinely listen to people instead of just waiting to reply when in a conversation.
17- I love the beach. I love the water. I love the warmer weather. I want to live there. THERE I SAID IT.
When we went to Florida last March, I felt like I was home. We are going again next week and I have said to Mike for the past month, “I feel like we are going back home. Is that weird?” I think the ocean is calling my name. Maybe I was a mermaid or a fisherman in a former life, but I want my vision to focus on living near the ocean someday. Someday soon.
My vision– I want a life that feels like a vacation (I also don’t want to pay high taxes to look at a water tower and live where the air hurts me).
Now the beauty of having a virtual vision board is that you can print it out and tape it to a wall, your desk, your dog. Wherever!
But to print out the entire board as one unit didn’t work for my printer (or Walgreen’s Photo Editor), so I decided since I was all in, I was going to print each item separately and make it like a fourth-grade research project.
I guess I’m gonna need the glue stick after all.
That was the plan but I had a busy weekend and didn’t do it.
I do realize that this doesn’t help my ‘vision”.
BUT I do want to see if this works. Will changes happen just because I glued them to a piece of paper? Or will changes happen because I put them out into the Universe virtually?