Today is April 1st, which means the first day of birthday month. No exclamation point because birthday month also implies quarantine month, which means that my actual birthday (the 28th) will be spent in quarantine. I just want everyone to stop dying, stop getting sick, stay at home, and be decent human beings. That’s what I want for my birthday this year.
I can only read so many articles about how bad this pandemic will get, how many more people will die, how we weren’t prepared enough or even knew enough before it becomes less about being informed and more about watching a bad accident.
That is what it feels like we are going through right now.
Sitting on the highway of life, coping with so many gapers delays that it makes our mental health take a tailspin.
I recently wrote in the comments of my friend Rita’s blog that:
I need to stay in the thick of it and not think of when it will end or if it will end. I cannot think this way or it will destroy me.
We need good news more than ever, and we aren’t getting enough of it, so I’m sharing this post because I believe you need it just as much as I do.
Here is what is helping me.
I’m staying up later than usual and sleeping in more. I like this new routine.
I’ve always been grateful for the sun, but never more so than in the last two weeks, when it was the only ray of hope outside my window. I now understand why dogs and cats sit in sunspots.
I’m glad I have a yellow-painted basement to go since it feels like daytime all the time down there.
I’m grateful we’re not alone in our house. That I have both of my daughters living with us. That my husband has a job, even though he is out there working in it, and that we have benefits as a result of that job.
I’m grateful that we have three pets who keep us entertained on a daily basis while also providing me with other lives to look after.
All of these things I took for granted on a daily basis, and I am eternally grateful for them all.
I am noticing, for the first spring in many springs, the grass as it slowly gets greener. The buds that are peeking out of the trees and bushes. The little green sprouts coming out of the ground. The birds singing, chirping every morning. Were they always there? I suppose they were.
I’m talking to my mom on the phone daily. We don’t usually have many new things to talk about, but I get to hear her (and sometimes dad’s ) voice on the phone every day, and I appreciate that so much, because I know a lot of people can’t do that but wish they could.
I am checking in on friends and they are checking in on me too. It feels so much deeper than our usual texts.
It’s amazing to see other individuals realize how crucial human connection is now more than ever.
I’ve been closer to friends and family that I’d gotten away from in our life, and every time we Facetime or text or send each other messages, it makes me realize that if it weren’t for this virus, we wouldn’t be doing that.
Because the lockdown has reduced my husband’s working hours, the four of us eat dinner together every night, and it has become the highlight of each day. Ella mentioned the other night at dinner that if Anna was at college, we wouldn’t have her home every night for dinner, but because of the virus, now we do.
I couldn’t have said it better myself, Ella.
I have a private Facebook page where everyone there can share funny and happy stuff. It has become a lovely place. I’ve laughed harder during this quarantine than I have in a long time because of that group.
I am becoming way more resourceful and much less wasteful than I ever have. I am careful with soap, paper products, and even food. And I appreciate a good meal too.
There’s a robin that keeps coming to our family room window daily and looks in. They peck on the window, chirp into the house, or just sit on the bush and stay for a couple of minutes. A cardinal came to our yard the other day and a mourning dove was sitting on our front porch after a long walk last week.
This makes me infinitely happy.
Ella said to me the other day, “you know mom, I never appreciated seeing Mamie and Papa as much as I do now and it makes me want to cry. “
Too much focus is on how the virus is tearing us apart and what it is taking from us, but in many cases, it’s actually doing the opposite, and that’s what I’m going to focus on today.
What is saving you currently?