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100 Drops of Gratitude

The past couple of weeks have felt like I have had to drag myself everywhere I go. Like a cartoon character who unfolds themselves out of bed onto the floor, down the hall, and onto the couch each day. I cannot motivate my teenager to homeschool most days, I can barely motivate myself to get in the shower, it’s just a lot.

My proverbial bucket has been emptied.

But I am not here to share the realities that all of you are also most likely going through; I am here to talk about what I am grateful for.

Since fall, every night I have been falling asleep by saying out loud all the things I am most grateful for that occurred within that day. I have found that this helps me to feel like there are more things to be happy about than I consider. It made me realize that maybe some of you would appreciate a list like this.

So I began working on this a while ago, adding things here and there; it has been a lot of fun thinking of all the things I should be grateful for.

The good shit that’s been happening…. and there is a lot.

Here are some oddly specific drops of gratitude I have been adding to my mental bucket over the past five months.

Maybe it will inspire some of you too.


Red Ladybug in Green Grass

100 Drops of Gratitude

 

my withholding journal 

-reading while sitting in a sunspot

-sunspots (especially during the winter)

-discovering new flowers on houseplants that haven’t bloomed in years

-my daily soul homework

-anti-depressants

-the smell of the inside of a coffee shop

-the smell of the soap section of a Whole Foods

 

 

Snoop Dogg Bow Woww Brownies

-my local library’s new book section

this documentary. Thank you, Suz, for the suggestion.

-that first sip of coffee in the morning

-knowing that if it weren’t for the art of writing, this year would have been a lot harder on me

SongPop; if you haven’t discovered it yet and are a music nerd, right that wrong.

-Spotify Creativity Boost playlist. Actually, all the curated playlists on Spotify. I have found the coolest and newest and most-offbeat artists over the past year, thanks to Spotify. I urge you to get a free account (if you don’t have one) for that reason alone.

-my five senses

 

 

-my home; I have never been so grateful for having one than I have this year.

-crossing things off my to-do list

-my husband’s sense of humor

-my headache doctor. I am so grateful to him for giving me my life back. Pain filled me with so much sadness and so much resentment for so many years. Every night before I fall asleep, I tell God, the Universe, my spirit guides, how grateful I am for him and his ability to help me get through this. I should have made this the first thing on the list.

-my ever-growing ability to ignore thoughts. This quote, “don’t believe everything you think”. Yes. YES. YESSS.

-my dog has this amazing habit of moving to sleep inside of my legs somewhere between four in the morning and when I wake up. Every morning, I wake to him in my legs. He began doing this when my migraines were at my worst this past summer. He is truly my comfort animal; I am grateful for him every day.

-a good fart; it is yoga for the colon.

-a deep cleansing breath; it is yoga for the lungs.

-my favorite coffee cup

-my favorite cereal bowl; it’s a ramen bowl I got at West Elm over the summer. Ella and I actually faux-fight over the bowl because it is a perfect size! (huge) I think we need to get another one.

 

And that bowl isn’t it. It’s from Dollar Tree.

 

 

-my favorite blanket and how much comfort it brings me

-looking at old pictures on my camera roll and seeing how much fun we’ve had over the years

-watching old home movies- ” ”

this comment on an article (scroll down to the comment by anonymous dated August 31, 2018, at 2:38 p.m. and read the thread. You won’t regret it)

-finding Schitt’s Creek this past year. It has become a comfort show in a time when I needed it most.

this quiz

-a good hard laugh. This will help get you started.

-learning to meditate

– talking to my plants

 

 

-finding love notes in my phone from my children from years past

-finding love notes in my phone from myself to myself

-appreciating winter for the first time since being a child. For years I hated winter, and this year, I didn’t. In fact, I loved every snowfall and when it was the first day of spring; I was shocked. Winter flew by this year. I believe it is because I am living more in the moment and? Antidepressants. Did I already mention how grateful I am for them?

-antidepressants (adding them again because)

-learning to love me

-the color green

-facing my fears (it is REALLY hard) I am grateful for this process even though it is scary AF.

-peanut m&m’s

-my mom and dad and their health

-our health as well

 

 

-horses and the therapy they provide to our sweet Ella (and to us as well)

-rainbows (in any form)

-the act of flossing teeth and how therapeutic that is

-how I am finding therapy in the strangest places

-FaceTime with Anna and the mutual love therapy it provides both of us

-Ella’s ability to make me face my truth

-morning talks with my husband

-walking in the woods

-trees just being trees

-afternoon coffee talks on the phone with my mom

 

 

-my little desk nook

-grammar editor apps

-my inability to grasp grammar (otherwise, I wouldn’t have found the above)

-Pema Chodron (I figured out how to pronounce her name)

-Starbucks iced chai lattes

-giving perfection the middle finger

-middle fingers

 

 

-discovering finds like this and feeling like you are living in an alternate universe

-then questioning your bird’s existence

-then questioning your own existence

-a cardinal’s bird call; or any bird call for that matter

-rabbit holes (not literal ones, figurative ones)

-intently reading something and saying YES! out loud to no one.

-finding a TikTok in my feed from Ella talking about me saying, “she didn’t think she looked good but I think she looks beautiful.”

-discovering TikTok late in the game and it giving you so much laughter

-shower meditation

 

 

-singing in the car at the top of your lungs

-book referrals from friends

-my newfound podcast and the therapy it is providing me

The Book Blueprint

-discovering that a “menopause specialist,” is a “thing”

-realizing that there are some days in the week I don’t watch any television because I have been writing and listening to music in place of it and the feeling of peace that brings me.

-hearing laughter coming from down the hall

-seeing my friends and family receiving the vaccine in my feeds

-that I finally conquered the dreaded Block Editor

 

 

-that I am motivated to edit my book again, thanks to the aforementioned Book Blueprint

-For finding this article about menopause from someone who gets it

-slowly getting back to normal; then realizing that things won’t ever be normal again. Then realizing again that normal isn’t even a thing. That our lives are always changing, always in flux, and that maybe we needed this wake-up call.

-for my soul family

-for my actual family

-for cartoons like this

 

 

-for pulling away from social media this year

-for cultivating relationships during the pandemic; I hear so much talk about this year being divisive, but there were relationships that grew stronger for me. I am so grateful for those.

-for all of you


I’d say my bucket is overflowing. I am passing it to you, hoping it helps fill your bucket. I hope you will pass it on and keep the chain going.

25 thoughts on “100 Drops of Gratitude”

  1. I love this post, Kari. Who knew that someone else’s gratitude list could make you happier, too?

    I’m so glad you’re finding relief from pain. Pain colors everything, doesn’t it? I’m having so many fewer headaches this year (and also enjoyed winter more, which has traditionally been headache-heavy). In spite of all the allness of the past year, there have been tremendous gifts within it.

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  2. This is fun. I remember when all bloggers had their top 100 things about me lists and this reminds me of that. I, too, am grateful for “trees just being trees.” I am grateful just about everything at this point.

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  3. What a wonderful gratitude list! I took the Buzz Feed Schitt’s Creek quiz and booo…I got one wrong! Though they say I did “absolutely shitt-tastic”, so there’s that. It was the “who wanted Moria to perform at his cousin’s funeral even though he wasn’t dead yet?” I couldn’t decide between Bob and Roland and I picked Bob. Dang, I was wrong.

    We are now watching the series, Kim’s Convenience on Netflix. Have you seen it? I think you and Mike (and Ella!) would really like it. Light-hearted and fun.

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  4. This is sweet. That comment on the Uncle Buck story is so fun. I got a good chuckle out of the yoga for your colon. You aren’t wrong! I slept so great last night and I swear today everything looks better, makes more sense, seems doable. Good sleep is my favorite thing (I mean besides the obvious children and husband and friends). Oh, and I LOVE crossing things off my list too.

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    1. Isn’t that story fun? Mike and I were in the car heading somewhere when I found it. I was reading it to him and it brought us so much happiness. I tucked it away for a tater tot post and then I remembered it a few months ago. I am so grateful for finds like that; they almost feel like Mr. Hughes is sending them down from Heaven like little bread crumb tracks of joy. Love, love, love.

      You are so right about sleep. When my migraines were at their worst last summer, I was averaging about four good hours of sleep. It was a mix of many things but bad sleep was a definite factor.

      Crossing things off feels good. Physically, feels good. LOL.

      Sending you big hugs. I’ve been thinking about you after your post the other day. A huge trigger for me is someone being left out, so my heart is with you. I wear mine on my sleeve, so I feel you friend. If you ever need to vent, I am always an email or text away. 🙂

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      1. Thanks, Kari. It was a blow. Although since I’ve distanced myself from them – I feel like it shouldn’t be. I guess because I’ve distanced myself then being left out makes me revisit all the reasons I distanced myself in the first place. That’s lots of ‘distanced’. Lawdy. Regardless of why they do it, or why I shouldn’t care, it still bites.

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      2. I think it’s a good thing you are distancing. Maybe there is a reason the word distance is appearing so much in that paragraph. I think you have been doing what you had to do to protect your heart. Life is too short to be around people who don’t make time for you. You’ve got much better things to do. 😘

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  5. a good fart; it is yoga for the colon.”
    You are a poet!

    So much to unpack. I love this post. But I’m also not loving that you are having to drag yourself out of bed lately.

    The birds. Birds are not real? WTH.

    So, did you like The Octopus Teacher? It felt like yoga for my brain.

    Gonna download Song Pop as soon as I find my damn apple password…

    I knew you would get the Block Editor.

    I love that complaint vs gratitude line; so very true.

    Thank you for sharing all your little things because if we’ve learned anything the little things are the things that really fill our soul.

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    1. I feel much better lately. It is up and down with each week but this week is a good one, so I am taking that as a win. I am also learning to live in the moment. Let me tell you, that is helping me immensely. Being mindful of each moment has helped me so much. If I could offer that piece of advice to anyone, it would be that. 🙂

      That bird’s website blew my ever-loving mind. I don’t believe it but man, it took me down a rabbit hole. I miss Joy so much. Still. There are weeks I want to get another bird so badly. Then I think it isn’t fair to cage birds and I am being selfish. Sigh.

      I LOVED THE OCTOPUS TEACHER. So did Mike. Our minds were blown at so many of the octopus facts we learned. And we also wanted to adopt an octopus when it was over. But again, that is selfish. WHATEVER.

      Block editor isn’t so bad but it definitely takes some getting used to. To be clear, the only posts I am writing in block editor are the podcast ones for now but at least I know how to do it when the time comes and that is also a win!

      The little things are big things. I think that is the takeaway when all is said and done.

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  6. I love this list! Thank you for sharing! (Tho your post about Joy made me cry. I’m so so sorry for you. Last year must have just…. no words to encompass the loss & sadness.) Gratitude thinking gets me thru so much. Also that photo of the horse n rider with the beautiful lighting. Oh man. Memories. I miss horses. Hope today gave you more entries for your Gratitude List!

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    1. This list helps me get through bad days. I hope it helps motivate others to create one too.
      I still miss Joy so much. Now that spring is here, I am hearing the birds sing again, and as lovely as it is, it makes me miss her more. 🙂
      Ella was at horses the other night and she was giving love to the one she was riding; it happened to be the horse she learned to ride on. I began to get tears in my eyes right there. Something about her and horses always makes me emotional, in a good way. I am so glad she has them. Lots of things to be grateful for.

      I hope today brings you lots of things to be grateful for too, Maddie!

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