A few things….
In the podcast I mention that certain migraines which give me panic attacks would occur once a month; that’s beside my several times per week migraines that would also occur.
Also, my “guest star” and I previously recorded this over the weekend.
I am thinking about possibly having one podcast per week dedicated to one subject of your choosing and then another one responding to comments, If there isn’t enough topic to talk about, then I will only record one podcast. As you can see, there is no rhyme or reason.
I wanted to dedicate this week’s podcast to something I was struggling with in actual life. Last week, I had a full-blown panic attack while awaiting insurance approval on a prescription for my every three month preventative that I have been taking since June. I was afraid I wouldn’t get the medication in time and the thought of having a migraine like I had last July, put me into an emotional tailspin. I can’t even write about that migraine because it was so bad and so ugly, I can’t even go to the dark place it sent me.
I’ve been reading the book “Living Beautifully” by Pema Chodron and she was discussing different ways of facing fear. That is where the discussion began in my muddled ADHD head; if I am truly growing in my soul homework ways, I am not facing my fear. I am panicking over a medication to take my fear away. The fear of another horrific migraine.
I am not saying that Pema is telling me to stop taking meds, so please don’t read into that. Listen to the podcast and definitely get her books from the library; she is really a brilliant writer. But it is a good discussion. I just want you all to know that even though I am working on myself daily, I am human and I also stumble daily.