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Good Thing I’m Not Afraid of Rabbits

So the Universal things just keep happening but then I have poop sandwich weeks too, just in case you think I am all happiness and rainbows all of the time because that would be so annoying, wouldn’t it?

 

Rainbow on a Cloudy Day

 

Someone having all sorts of happiness 24/7 while the world is falling apart? Even if I was having that, I wouldn’t tell you because that would seem insensitive. But I did have a poopy week last week and I felt that I should share that with you. Nothing horribly significant but enough to just make it one big turd in the pool of this year.

The good news is that I was able to see a positive in every day, it didn’t put me over the edge, and I was able to power through. Old Kari would have been devastated to my core, embarrassingly enough. New Kari, was happy to start another week with no visible mental scars to show from the previous week, completely unlike my former self.

So November 1st came in with a bang as I woke up at 2:30 in the morning with a migraine (you thought it was going somewhere else with that, didn’t you?). It was also Daylight Savings Time if you recall. Long story short, it could have been ugly as the end of the month means I am out of my “rescue” medication (sumatriptan injectible) because it refills on the 1st of every month.

The good news- my migraine intensity has improved significantly since summer.

The bad news- my migraine quantity has remained the same or even increased. We aren’t reading into that right now. My doctor is handling it and I am happily giving it to him. I am not in charge of that problem because I used to think I was. Old me used to sit up for hours worrying about it and then I would think, hmm I am not paid six figures to figure this out, HE is. And then I would get another migraine because I had been up for hours worrying about it.

But on this November 1st, I woke up in the middle of the night and took the last of my rescue medication, fell back to sleep, and woke up at 7 in the morning which was really 6 in the morning, (fu**ing 2020 won’t ever end) and said to my husband that I was a little frustrated.

Now, the former me would have been a sobbing, heaving mess of WHY MEEE’s and it would have ruined my entire Sunday. But I am not doing self-pity any longer and it is quite freeing, I’ll have you know (more about that in my upcoming universe-ism lesson #2).

 

Greyscale Photography of Woman Wearing Long-sleeved Top

 

I have been doing some spiritual homework as of late and I have discovered that my biggest obstacle in life is fear. I literally just made this discovery on my own last week and it is life-changing and not in a figurative way, but rather in a literal way.

Fear has been my personal motivator for as long as I can remember. Fear has been my plus one, my shotgun, my maid of honor, my BFF, since my childhood. It has been a part of every single decision I have ever made since I can remember. It controls my entire life, my every thought, my every moment and it is super toxic.

I need to ditch that “friend”.

But that “friend” doesn’t seem to get the hint.

Since learning this about myself, I have been pulling away slowly, trying to be nice but now I need to get mean and you know how I hate confrontation. Or maybe you don’t know. The point is, it isn’t easy to ditch someone you’ve known for a long time. It can be very scary and uncertain and it is so much easier to be afraid than it is to have faith.

 

Close-up of Rabbit on Field

 

So I was on Twitter on November 1st and I saw in my feed a tweet, from a woman who is a recovering opioid addict, mind you, that if you say the words rabbit, rabbit, rabbit on the 1st of the month, it brings good luck into your month. While I am not now or ever have been an opioid addict, as a migraine sufferer I can sympathize with people who have had or who currently have chronic pain and have had to use medication of some sort to dull that pain, emotional or physical.

Back to the chant, while I am not necessarily superstitious I am willing to try anything to make this year better.

So I said it out loud to no one…

 

RABBIT

RABBIT

RABBIT

 

Assorted Books on Shelf

 

Soon after, I remembered an article I had found  (also on Twitter) the day before telling me about new literary agents to look for if you had just written a book. Long story short, if you need someone to pimp your book you want a literary agent. It is easier to get them to publish your book than you schlepping your book. Also, publishing houses never really take a look at you without them. It is a dog eat dog world of publishing. But I am not at all deterred because I want this for myself, I am putting it out there, I will get my book published by next year.

So then I scrolled through the article and see a picture of a bouncy blonde new literary agent who is interested in non-fiction books, and I like her immediately but what struck me instantly is that she has pet rabbits.

THREE of them.

Rabbit

Rabbit

Rabbit

I am not making this up.

 

I know you’re tired of my Universe book making an appearance. It’s like my blog co-writer at this point. But the book opened to this page on the morning of November 1st.

 

This rabbit realization inspired me to reach out to her IMMEDIATELY but in order to do that, I needed to create a query letter. I hadn’t written one yet and hadn’t been motivated to write one yet as my friend is still in the process of editing my book. So this put my butt in gear to write a query letter.

On a day when I had a migraine.

I finished it in an hour and a half.

I was so excited! THIS IS THE UNIVERSE SENDING ME A SIGN! I was sure of it!

But when I went to send it to her, I saw this note when I clicked on the submission form:

Sorry, I am no longer accepting queries until December of 2020.


 

My former self would have been so upset at this. I may have cried right there at the computer. I probably would have said a few choice words. I definitely would have pounded my fists. I know I would have surely screamed something like ARE YOU KIDDING ME? THIS WEEK IS GONNA SUCK TOO! GAHHH!

I may have even given up right there on the spot and said, “why does this always happen to me??”

But this time, I laughed.

LAUGHED!

CAN YOU EVEN IMAGINE?

And then I said out loud to myself, “It’s just not meant to be at this time. ”

I am really loving this new me.

I am still quite fearful and I know it’s going to take a lot of time to learn to have more faith. To be less afraid of everything. But I had to share this with all of you because you’ve been a huge part of this journey and I thought you would get a kick out of this.

This seemed more like a blog post than some of the stuff I have been sharing and with the tension of this week, it seemed like something fun to share.

But guess what? I have a query letter!

Onward.

 

With everything going on in our country right now, I thought maybe someone could use these words. I know they have helped me. My book opened to this page on November 2nd. I feel like the Universe needed me to read it or share it. Either way, I am sharing it today.

25 thoughts on “Good Thing I’m Not Afraid of Rabbits”

  1. Oh I always say “rabbit, rabbit, rabbit” on the first day of the month. I’ve no idea if it helps me have a better month, but it does remind me that it’s the first day of the month and I need to clean the coffeemaker. Because that’s what I do on the first day of the month, I clean the coffeemaker. My habits are idiosyncratic, my goals are small

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  2. That is SO funny that this woman has pet rabbits. What the what? i have a hilarious story about a lady who was going to embroider a dress I was making for Mini for Irish dancing. She had pet rabbits. Like A BUNCH OF THEM. And they ran free in her home. Outside of the zoo, I have never smelled anything so awful. How could she live like that? I didn’t know and I brought my kids there with me and they were little. They couldn’t stop holding their noses and saying: “Eww, what’s that smell?” Super embarrassing.

    I say having the query letter done is a feat all on its own. December is NOT that far off (that is a thought that makes me sad, I prefer our current 60 degree temps).

    That universe book is kicking ass in the ‘let me help you figure things out’ department. Pretty awesome.

    I got all mixed up with the time change and for a bit I was thinking we were losing an hour. I was super happy to have that extra hour. By noon I had done so much, I felt super accomplished.

    Hope your migraines become less common. Sounds awful.

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    1. Omg how awful! That means they pooped EVERYWHERE. Gah.

      Yes! It’s only a few weeks away and what I didn’t mention in the post is that on Election Day, I found another literary agent and I DID send her my query letter! So I sent my first one! My first of many, I’m sure but it was exciting nonetheless.

      I am also loving this weather too. I don’t want it to end. 🍁🌈

      That book has been such a God-send.

      We don’t need an extra hour of this year, that’s for sure. 😂

      Thank you, friend.

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  3. I heard about rabbit rabbit rabbit from Sarah Jessica Parker of all people.

    December 2020 isn’t that far away. And you have query letter. I’m glad new Kari can hit a bump and laugh.

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  4. Yay for you for rolling with the punches and getting your letter out of the way… plus I read up above that you already sent it off to another agent and that is fantastic!

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    1. YES! I was looking for the link to the article and found another agent who looked like a great fit so I sent her an email! So I hope I get to hear back from her because she sounded like she and I would really get along. I want to not only find someone who can help me make my book a reality but also someone who “gets” it as well. ❤️

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  5. I always thought it was Rabbit, Rabbit. It’s three rabbits? Tres? A trio? A Menae a trois?
    I’ve been doing it all wrong.
    I’m loving all your universal signs and the fact that YOU ARE paying attention to them. I’m also loving this new Kari because I think she is loving herself much more.
    December 2020 is NOT that far away; 27 days my friend.

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    1. Tres Rabbit! But I had never heard of it until a few days ago!
      Try it and see what kind of luck you have this month!

      Yes, friend! I can’t wait to see all of the new adventures and opportunities that come along from these discoveries.

      27 days! ❤️

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  6. I’d never heard of Rabbit Rabbit Rabbit until last year, I think. But here’s the deal, ever since I heard about it, I’ve never once remembered it early enough to have those be the first words out of my mouth on the first day of the month. Oh well, there’s always next month.

    I love that you are doing all this work, seeing the rewards and sharing them. It’s very motivating.

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    1. That is exactly what I fear will happen, especially with my menopause brain! I’ll surely remember it…on the 2nd of each month. 😂

      Thank you. It has been a fun journey and I hope it keeps me motivated as well!

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  7. How have I lived this long without ever hearing about this rabbit thing that apparently (by the looks of your comments) so many people know about?

    Perhaps because I, too, have been too busy with our mutual friend Fear. She’s kind of a bitch, isn’t she? I know that sometimes she’s kept me from doing really stupid things, but she’s also sometimes pushed me into doing really stupid things. I think the problem is that she’s kind of like those mean junior high girls–the ones who seem like they know so much more than you and who intimidate you. She makes you uncomfortable, which you don’t like, so you don’t spend too much time looking closely at her or at why you feel the way you do around her. But then there she is, standing next to you in the bathroom while you’re washing your hands, putting on some Lipsmacker gloss and tossing an off-hand comment about something that you can’t stop obsessing about for the rest of the day. And then you don’t do some thing you would’ve otherwise done–tried out for the play, said “hi” to that person you’d like to know better, spoken up in class. It’s way past time for us to look Fear in the face, consider what she says but not give it too much weight. Spend more time hanging out with some other girls–Faith, Joy, and Hope, for starters. 🙂

    (I’m glad you’re feeling so much better. I am, too, in spite of some hard things lately.)

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    1. That’s what I said!

      Such a bitch. It’s going to take me a while to get over this friendship. It’s a a hard one to get over. But at least I can realize how toxic it is and that is a good first step.

      I’m glad you’re feeling better too. 😘

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  8. It’s three rabbits? I had always heard “rabbit, rabbit” on the first of every month! Dang, those little fluff balls know how to multiply! Regardless, rabbits are cute. If not smelly. We had a pet bunny at one point.

    I hear you about the fear. That’s the root of anxiety. I’m always working on that (and myself), too. So yes, celebrate every little step and victory that you can. Being human is always a work in progress, isn’t it?

    xoxo

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  9. I have never heard of rabbit, rabbit, rabbit before. But I love that the universal pay off was so quick for you! Me and rabbits have a weird relationship. I don’t know if it’s because of Roger Rabbit, or Bugs Bunny, my childhood best friend’s rabbit, or my college roommate’s rabbit who ate through my yoga mat (also, now I’m not sure if my childhood friend really did have a rabbit). If I had to define my relationship with rabbits, I’d say it was complicated. Does the good luck only work if you say it on the first of the month?

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    1. Yes, according to the myth or legend or whatever it’s called, you have to say it on the first day of the month. The cool thing is that this comment is written on Friday the 13th. 13 is also good luck for us because Anna was born on a 13th day.

      You’ve experienced a lot of rabbits in your lifetime. I have not. Maybe that is good luck?

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